happiness outweighs the worries.

Happiness always has the ability to outweigh any worries that may be in the back of your mind. When times seem tough all you have to do is look at what you have and know that no matter what happens you will always have love and therefore you will always have happiness. Zachary got news that he will have to take a day off with no pay every two weeks due to the economy being slow. We will have $200 less on each check. It is already tight but it is about to be even tighter. We will manage, we always do. I am trying to keep the worry from entering my mind. I look at Zach and Tegan and I know that everything will be ok. They are my happiness and the lights of my world. Love is all you need in this world, if only everyone could come to realize that!! Sitting here typing slowly with one hand while Tegan peacefully sleeps on the other is an example of pure joy and happiness. Not even my growling tummy will force me to put her down!!

Thank god for income tax returns!! It came at the right time and It allowed us to get all we needed for the kitchen remodel, our plane tickets and spending money for our trip in april, and much needed clothes for us and Tegan as well as some toys for her. I promise I will take before and after pics of the kitchen! I know I forgot when we did the living room..sorry. Here are pictures of Tegan from this morning. Enjoy!!

Tegan's Taggie

Little miss Tegan has been doing alot of playing with, chewing and sucking on her burpcloths (cloth diapers). I just couldn't handle her chewing on and cuddling with an icky cloth full of spit up and smelled like sour milk. She has many little loveys but all of which are made out of very soft material with silk backing and for some reason she doesn't like them. She rather have the rough thick texture of an old cloth diaper so I decided to make her a little woobie using a cloth diaper as material. I couldn't decided how to do it and make it cute(after all it is a cloth diaper! haha)..after some thinking the ideas starting coming in. I decided I wanted to make it a little taggie with cute colors and different textures for her little hands. The backing is a nice pink and white polka dot flannel and the front is a cloth diaper that I sewed a strip of pink and white polka flannel on with a square of silk fabric with her initial inside..and of course a little bow. The entire outside is lined with little ribbon tags of different sizes, colors and textures. Tegan LOVES it! Thankfully she took right to it so I no longer have to watch my little princess suck on a puke covered burpcloth. She has been holding onto, playing with, chewing and sucking on it ever since!! Of course I have pictures from today to share!! :)

oh and I have to share my all my excitement!! Tegan's tea time excersaucer should be here any day now! Zach and I picked up a new sink and faucet set and ordered new counter tops and a stove, they will be ready to pick up on the 9th of march! I can't wait!! I am soo tired of cooking off of my 1950's counter top stove that only has one working burner and a griddle (although I will miss the pininis it makes!) I will no longer have to burn my arm on the oven that is up too high for me to safely reach into. We have to remove the cupboard so I can have an actual stove/oven and remove the wall over and build cupboards. It will be a lot of work but it will be sooo worth it!I ordered an organic baby wrap from loveyduds the other day!! I can't wait for it to get here, it will be sooo nice for when we travel in april!!! I have been working out on our wii fit!!! Already I feel the burn! haha. I bought a pair of size 7/8 jean gauchos the other day...size 7/8 woot!! Now if only I could get rid of all this extra skin Tegan gave me...any ideas?? Or am I stuck looking like a deflated balloon forever??? lmao!

3 months....

We think of three months being such a small amount of time. Before I had Tegan three months seemed to last forever, dragging by slowly day by day. I now look at time in a whole other way. Three months is really nothing, it is gone before you even have time to think twice! In such a small amount of time so many things can change and happen!! Tegan is now three months old. SO much has changed in the past three months. Tegan no longer sleeps in her bassinet next to my side of the bed, instead she sleeps in her bedroom in her crib. This of course breaks mommys heart! It is amazing how lonely my room seems without her in it at night!! She is starting to sleep through the night!! It has happend twice now!! No more waking every three hours for feedings and diaper changes. I no longer change her diaper in fear that a sneeze will magically send poop flying across the room. We now get excited to see her sweet smiles when three months ago excitement came from seeing her eyes open. Tegan now plays with her toys and smiles and babbles all day long filling our house with such warmth. Before I know it those smiles will have laughs behind them and those babbles will start to take form of words. Three months is such a short amount of time yet so much can happen!! I am amazed with everyday!!

tomorrow I become the mommy of a 3 month old!

That is right!! Tegan Marie will be 3 whole months old tomorrow!!! So here is my last round of pictures of my baby girl as a two month old. It flew by way too fast!!! Onto a new month full of exciting new milestones.

Mommy to a 12 week old!!

My little girl is now 12 weeks old, in a week I will the mommy to a three month old and before I know it she will be celebrating her first birthday!! Time never seemed to slip by so fast until Tegan came into our lives! Ever day she does something new and exciting and she never ceases to amaze us! Tegan is now in size two diapers and in some of her 3-6month clothes!! I just can't get over how big she is getting. She got her ears pierced on monday, she was such a brave girl!! She slept in her crib for the first time last night, I of course slept on the hard floor of her bedroom! I think tonight I will use the monitorsand try to sleep in my own room. My baby is becomming less of a baby each day!! She has such a happy bubbly personality, she lights up our days!!! Here are tons of pictures!!!