my first ob apt!!!!

I know I know, I'm a bit behind on updating you all and a few of you are wondering how my appointment went. I have just been so darn busy that this is the first time that I'm home and awake and not with my head over the toilette to update you. I had my OB appointment yesterday at 9 am, I was late to my appointment because I went to my Dr's old office location, I didn't know he got moved ALL the way across town. Finally I got there and had to wait a bit due to be being late lol but I got there :) I am SO happy to be back with Dr. Battacharya, he is the best and after seeing him I remember why Zach and I love him so much! He is so sweet, understanding and he really does what is best for the patient and he lets you know EVERYTHING!! He was beyond happy to see Zach and I and so happy that we finally have a wonderful pregnancy! I am a bit sad that there are 5 Dr's on the call list so I may not have him the day I go into labor, I just pray I'm lucky and I do get to have him deliver my miracle. After all he was the one that started us out in trying to conceive. They checked my blood pressure, which was amazing as always and talked alot. Dr Holden (my RE) STILL hadn't sent my records over, I was so freaking pissed! They were to have sent them last week and didn't I called two days before my ob apt to find out they didn't send them and they said they were going to send them that day but nope they didn't..hmm imagine that! grr I'm so glad to be out of that office! So after telling Dr B everything and getting him caught up he went over all the normal first ob apt stuff. Thanks to my records not being sent over I had to sign to have another HIV test done, I was told that if they weren't able to get ahold of my records from Dr Holden and if I didn't get all the tests redone now then I would have to submit my baby to have blood work and there is no way so I did the HIV test again! Along with that I had the normal pregnancy panel done, they took 10 viles of blood and I hadn't eaten or drank much so I got really tired from it Lil. The nurse had everything set out to do a pap and when Dr B came in he told me he was going to do one and I simply said it made me nervous and he said that he understands and doesn't mind waiting to do one until Im 32 weeks if that makes me feel better..see why I love him! I asked him if he would check the heart beat so he brought in the doppler and found that beautiful little sound right away!! The darn doppler didn't give us a number but it was going nice and strong. Due to me not being released from Dr Holden until 12 weeks Dr B said I missed a very big ultra sound, the one were they check for downs that is done at 13 weeks..but on a good note..due to no records being sent over I get a dated ultra sound of sweet tart done next week! yay!!! The Dr's office gave me a diaper bag full of goodies for the pregnancy :) the nurses, lab techs, front desk lady's, EVERYONE at the office was SO nice..I love it! The office Dr B used to be at was full of bitches and Dr Holden's office sure wasn't full of nice friendly people other than 2 of the nurses. It is so nice to finally be in a good environment surrounded by supportive positive sweet people.

I am doing ok, I dont know who said you feel better in the second trimester because with me that is so not true!! I was in the bathroom throwing up the other day for 10 minutes and today I walked down the bread isle in walmart and threw up my breakfast (I dont know what it is about the smell of bread) I have been doing well with eating. Im back up to being +3 pounds so hopefully Im back on the good track. I am so in love with this baby, every time I look at my belly I smile so big and feel so complete...aww. I ordered a few more maternity shirts from old navy today...they had a giant sale online so woot woot!! I am having a hell of a time finding another knee length jean skirt with a full belly panel, I feel so bleh wearing the same jean skirt every time I go out..ha ha and what if someone notices??? ha ha oh well. We have Sweet Tart enrolled in the children's book of the month club so we are getting bunches of books :) we have some clothes but I dont want to buy many just yet because unisex isn't as much fun lol not to mention you always end up with tons of clothes at the shower!!! We have some diapers and wipes and we have started picking up some little toys for sweet tart :) I have an adorable shelf in my living room that can hold six baskets (3 on top and 3 on bottom) I have three baskets on bottom just for sweet tart, one has board books, and the other two have little toys in them. We love getting things for the baby, it is so much fun and bring so much happiness to Zach and I!!!

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend, I will be running around at graduation parties this weekend..bleh another long weekend for me. Take care all!!!

13 weeks

I am 13 weeks pregnant today! yay! Im so excited, each week that passes puts me another week closer to holding my baby in my arms. Zachary and I love this baby beyond all words, at nite I hold my belly just smiling and day dreaming about our future together as a family. Zach and I read to Sweet Tart daily now, even if the baby can't hear us speaking yet it is something that is very important to us and it is a way to show our love to our miracle. I have been doing a bit better on the eating front but good ol acid reflux has kicked in full force! No matter what I eat I will be burping up the acid version of it for hours, and gagging over it forever it seems. I am done with all types of chips, no more slushies, no more alfredo ever, no bell peppers, nothing with red sauce, no french onion dip, nothing with black pepper or onions, done! lol did you know that alfredo and slushie comming up together makes strawberry milk shake! lol gross I know but so true! Once it comes up I wont eat it again. Peanut butter toast and fresh fruit are my favorites right now. yummy! My belly is getting rounder, not so much bigger but it is rounding out a bit more, I no longer have that point at the bottom. The back pain is getting better for now, I stole Zach's body pillow (bless his heart) so that helps at night and durning the day I can't sit on anything hard or anything without back support and I will be a ok :) I have my first ob apt on thursday at 9am, Im so excited to see my ob! he is the one that started us with infertility treatments about 3 years ago he actually reffered me to my RE. He is the sweetest guy ever and he listens to my every concern and answers my every question, he told me to be sure to come back to him when pregnant so I know he will be happy to see me. I dont really know what to expect at a first ob apt. I have had all blood work done before the iui so I wont need that, Im sure I wont have an ultra sound so most likely he will go over my charts from my RE and go from there. I will be sure to let you know how it goes!!!

Quick shout out to my mommy! she is 40 today!! happy birthday mom!


here are my belly shots :) a side view and an angled side view

quick update

sorry I am a bit behind in posting this blog here, I posted it on myspace and such and totally forgot to paste it here on blogger so here it is!

I want to thank everyone for the support and kind words on my previous blog! It is nice knowing that I am not the only one that has gone through such things and felt so horrible about it. I am still only up 2 pounds but the past few days I have been hungry and actually eating decent, of corse I gag for five hours after eating but atleast I am getting food in my belly. I even woke up at 1 am the other morning starving. I have been feeling much better about my weight gain, thanks for all letting me know it will be ok and my baby is getting all that it needs even if Im not eating much. I was just feeling very down and like a bad mommy. I am still having horrid back pain, Im sure it is something I will have to deal with with the entire pregnancy thanks to a very tilted uterus. I have learned how to cope with it, it is called a hubby that rubs my back! :) hehe. I feel more and more pregnant each week, and I LOVE IT!!! My belly is growing to be more round and my skin has never looked better, and omg my leg hair doesn't grow as fast so I can shave every other day instead of every! woohoo! I think I felt the baby last night, it was a feeling like nothing I could ever explain..but it was so wonderful!! here are two pics that were taken yesterday! me at 12 1/2 weeks! yay! I will be 13 weeks tuesday! woohoo for the second trimester!

feeling a bit on the sad side...in need of advice and a pick me up!

feeling a bit on the sad side..

I am feeling very bad today. I have been told that the baby will take all that it needs to from me whether I eat alot or not, but knowingly not eating enough makes me feel horrible! Here it is 4 pm and all I've had all day were 1 1/2 biscuts and gravy, a glass of milk and a bottle of water. Some days I feel hungry and actually eat decent, still not as well as I should..and days like today Im just not hungry, and nothing sounds good. I try forcing myself to eat but if it isn't something I really want (which is hard on a day when you want nothing) I will gag and gag and gag. Here I am 3 months pregnant and a week away from being in the second trimester and I have only gained 2 pounds. At one point I was up 4 pounds but the past 2 weeks I have been steady at 2- 2 1/2 and I am supposed to gain 2 1/2-5 pounds. I look bigger but the scale isn't saying so. I just feel horrible! I know I need to eat more, I need to eat way more! Many days I dont even get in 1,000 calories which is bad, but what am I to do?? Someone please help me!!! Any adivice, tips, anything! I feel like crying!!! I want a nice healthy baby and I dont feel like I am doing a good enough job! Why do I have to gag about everything, why can't I just have crazy cravings and eat non stop??? Has anyone else felt like this during pregnancy??

12 week ultra sound video

I tried to post this earlier but had issues, I know those that have yahoo have seen it but for my ladies that dont here it is, enjoy :)

12 weeks pregnant! us pics/belly shot

I had my 12 week ultra sound this morning, I could hardly sleep I was so excited! Zach and I went to bed early last night so this morning would come faster! It is always sooo exciting to see our little miracle. Sweet Tart has grown SO much! I am now 12 weeks pregnant, sweet tart is measuring exactly 12 weeks and is a little over 2 inches crown to rump. The baby had a beautiful strong heartbeat at 160bpm that we got to hear this time!!! It is so breathtaking!! The baby was moving all over lmao, moving its little hands and arms and legs..sweet tart even had the hicups! It was adorable!!! My due date is bumped up to December 2nd :) I can't wait to meet my little miracle! I am so very much in love. Here are the pictures from the ultra sound, and a bad picture of me and my belly! I am officially released from my RE now and I have my first OB apt next Thursday!

my sweet tart

sweet tart's body and long leg with foot :)

home from the ER

Yesterday I started having lower back pain on and off and this morning I woke up to bad lower back pain that seemed to be getting worse as the day went on. A few friends along with my mil and sil told me to go in and get checked thinking I had a UTI sneeking in so after alot of pondering and crying over the situation I finally gave in and took the hour drive to rockford to the ER. My mom, mil and fil all went with lol. After waiting forever they checked my urine and I am free of all infections! They did a quick EXTERNAL (really exciting not to have a vaginal one haha) ultra sound and found the baby right away! I can't believe how big my little sweet tart has gotten!!! My miracles arms were moving and every time they pushed a bit on my belly sweet tart would jump :) aww Im so in love! The heart was fluttering away, my mom was in the room so she got to see a little look at her miracle grand baby, and her first grand baby at that! The baby was in the back of my uterus and I have a tilted uterus so the pain is simply my uterus expanding and my hips growing and everything pushing on my back. I feel really stupid to have gone into the ER and nothing be wrong but at the same time Im happy that I know all is well

11 week update and belly pics.

I am 11 weeks pregnant today, measuring 11 weeks and 3 days. Only 4 more days until my 12 week ultra sound! I can't wait to see our little miracle again and see how much sweet tart has grown. What was once the size of a grain of rice is now the size of a plum, and growing with each day. I am really starting to feel pregnant! I felt wonderful last week, haha but this week came around and I was back to being nauseous and full of heartburn. I Threw up the other night for the first time since getting pregnant, and I gag over everything! I called the Dr this morning in tears because I noticed I was cramping...apparently growing and stretching can cause AF type cramps. The Dr wanted to call me in a script for the pain but I declined, I want no drugs..as long as it isn't anything wrong then I can deal with the pain. It went away within a few hours anyhow :) I had no idea that you have such achy cramps when stretching but I suppose it makes sense. I just got all freaked out when I felt cramps due to past experiences but my nurse assured me that it is VERY normal during pregnancy and there is nothing to be worried about, the baby is just growing nice and healthy. I can't wait for my ultra sound on Tuesday!! They are going to record it for us for a keepsake and I will then be released from the care of my RE! I have my first OB apt on the 29Th! There is so much to look forward to! Come on second trimester!!!! :)

Thank you all that were there for me this morning to ease my mind, you girls are the best!

Here are my 11 week belly shots! My belly seems to be poking out even more then before, I am still only up 2 1/2 pounds and it is recommended to gain 2 1/2-5 pounds in the first trimester so I am doing great! my current mad cravings are chocolate with fresh oranges! I can't seem to get enough fruit, yum!

p.s. ignore my hair! I haven't felt like doing anything to it so I have been going all natural.

bye bye wedding ring

Well it appears as though I have reached a new stage in my pregnancy, one that I didn't think would come until 6 or 7 months. Today I noticed that my ring finger was throbbing and going numb, thanks to water retention and increased blood my wedding ring is now too tight for my little fingers :( I had to get it off, thankfully with a little work I did manage to get it off. I feel naked without my beautiful ring. Thankfully I have my moms old wedding ring that I wear on my right hand that I was able to switch over to my wedding ring finger until that doesn't fit anymore. The two rings were a half size differant so it wont be long. I felt like crying when taking it off lol...oh the hormones! So that was my cry of the day :) Only 8 days to go until my 12 week ultra sound!!!!!!

new pics! with my face!

10 weeks!

Today makes me 10 weeks pregnant, a whole 2 1/2 months! It is crazy to believe that in 11 days I will be going into my RE for my 12 week ultra sound!! If the baby is still measuring 3 days ahead my due date will be bumped up to Dec 2nd which would make me 10 weeks 3 days pregnant today. I am feeling well, I have my good days and my bad days. Some days I feel soo wonderful, others my stomach does loops and I can't get off the couch. I lost another 1/2 pound so I am now only up 2 1/2 pounds since my pre pregnancy weight. I look bigger, boy do I look bigger but the scale says I went down..maybe I am losing fat while I am gaining baby, amniotic fluid, water and blood! Did you know that you gain 45% more blood by the third trimester! It is so crazy how the body works!! I am very nervous about posting my new belly shots, I know I shouldn't care what others has to say and usually I dont but when people say mean things about my belly it gets me all upset..must be the pregnancy in me, I tend to get upset alot now! I feel that once I hit 9 weeks I really popped out, yes to some I am huge lmao but seriously what can I do. I am so short, and very short weisted to begin with that the littlest amount will show on me. Plus my uterus is the size of a large grapefruit now, and I am gaining fluid and blood with each day that passes (all so amazing and mind boggling to me). Oh and our little sweet tart is now the size of a prune now..how amazing! I love reading my weekly updates, I am always in awe with all that our baby has developed and gone through already. I am 2 weeks away from being done with 1/3 of the pregnancy! It goes by soo fast! wow! Okay so now I am really rambling on..you can't at all tell Im excited can you???

I will post pics of me with my face later lmao until then enjoy my belly shots. We will be busy this weekend, it seems that every weekend this month has been nuts!!! Today I am getting my hair done, Im soo excited I am used to going in every 6 weeks but I haven't since jan due to the iui and blood work weekly and being so busy. We are then going out with Zach's parents for the night. Tomorrow we have a family party to go to, sunday is mothers day..I am going to church then going out with my mom and sister all day. Monday I think I will sleep! :) Oh I got my labs in from last week, my progesterone is at 41.4 :) it did drop a teeny tiny amount..it was 44 but the nurse said that it will fluctuate from day to day. So yay! I am off my supplements and doing well!!! I dont need to have my levels checked until my 12 week appointment.

9 week update

Hello my loverlies! Sorry I wasn't able to set down and write my update for you all yesterday! It was a very very busy day! I had to get up and get my blood done, get groceries, come home eat lunch, get pretty and head to woodstoock illinois which is up by chicago. We had to go to my brother in laws engagement dinner at my soon to be siter in laws parents so the two familys could meet. We had a wonderful time, I got my first belly rub too!! Liz's mom gave me a hug goodbye and rubbed my belly and told me to take care of our little baby..aww!!! They were such wonderful people! Liz and her family are from India so she made all indian dishes and had tons of fruit yum! We got home after 12 am which is way past my bedtime lately lol. I came home, hit the sheets and was gone! So here I am recovered from the long day and ready to blog :)

I have been doing wonderful! Earlier this week I had the worst nausea I have had during this pregnancy, I could only eat toast and water. On thursday I woke up feeling wonderful and have continued to feel great since then. Everything causes me horrid heartburn and tums dont seem to help much but I manage, atleast I can eat now!!! The past two weeks I have had the WORST dreams!! Why is it that women have horrid dreams when pregnant??? The other night I dreamed that we had the baby with us and we were driving along the road and part of it was washed out from the river and the person driving slamed on the gas causing us to fishtail and get pulled into the river and the car went down and we couldn't get the baby out! Then over and over nearly nightly I have dreams that I wake up to pee and have blood everywhere. I dont want these dreams, I want happy dreams!!!! I have been having round ligament pains, or atleast I think that is what they are lol it feels like growing pains that wrap around my belly, go into my pelvis and my theighs so Im growing growing growing and feeling it lol. I can't belive I am 9 weeks, not too much longer and I will be in my RE's office awaiting my 12 week ultrasound..after all it is only 17 days away!!! I am still in awe over this pregnancy, I feel so blessed and I am so very much in love with my little sweet tart.