Pregnant! Welcome Sweet Tart to the Wright family!

I know you girls have been dieing waiting for me to blog with the details lmao and for that I am sorry. I wanted to get to my grandma's house before it got too late and I of corse had the phone calls to make. I wanted to atleast let you know the results so you didn't really die lol. Zachary and I are pregnant, really pregnant!! For those that remember I have been pregnant twice, a beta of a 7 and a beta of a 9 both ended in miscarriage. WELL this cycle my beta is a giant 173.2!!! I am exactly four weeks pregnant today, my estimated due date is december 6th. I dont know my hormone levels yet, those labs wont be in until monday but I am on supplements so I know the numbers are good. I knew going into this cycle that it would be the one for us, I had this feeling deep down in my sould, every time I close my eyes I see me in the delivery room. I have never been happier!!!! I am feeling pregnant, I am so bitchy and emotional and nauseated by everything..yay!!!! I love it! I want to feel everything!!!! I feel so very very blessed. Thank you all soo much for all your love and constant prayers and support, it means the world to me! I have had a wonderful happy day but there are a few in the family that can't find happiness in this pregnancy because of how my other two have ended..well every cycle is differant and I know for a fact that this cycle will end in me bringing a baby home in my arms!!!!!! I go in on tuesday for another beta :) Pray the numbers keep going and going and going!!!!!!

at a loss for words yet I have so much to say!

I just dont understand the negativity of this world, the doubt and the constant fear and thoughts of what if. Everything that is meant to be will be, it is that simple. whether it be getting that new job you want or having that baby you have always dreamed of. I am a very positive person, and I have a wonderful outlook on life. Maybe that is because I am a christian who is strong in faith or maybe it is because that is the person I had to be when growing up. I believe that life should be lived each day as the blessing it is..not everyone is blessed with that day and that moment so we shouldn't take it for granted. In this world of trying to conceive you come across so many different people, but we all have one dream and that is to become the parent of a beautiful child. So many of us want such a dream to come true more than life itself and will do anything to make that dream become reality. I am sooo soo very tired of people saying that it will never happen, or blaming God and cursing him, or those that are soo darn negative. I am tired of those that go into a cycle and confess before they start it that it will fail. If you confess failure that is what you will receive. God knows what he is doing, and he has plans for you. Through the hard times of life you shouldn't push God away and blame him, you should blame yourself for not letting him in. You have to pray, and ask him for the desires of your heart, and when you pray believe that you have them and you WILL receive them! God makes things hard to make us stronger people and to make his light shine through. I may have a different view on this topic than others and maybe some of you are shaking your head in dis agreence while reading this vent, but whether you are a christian or not I know for a fact that doubt, and constant negativity never got anyone anywhere! This world has become so full of pessimists and I feel like there are so few of us optimist out there and I would love to turn that around. I want others to feel the joys of life like I do, I want others to be thankful for each and every second, and know that they are blessed no matter how hard things may feel at the time. Be thankful for this moment, this moment is your life and it may be your last!! Be positive and dont ever admit to defeat. Doubt is is opposite of faith.

only 5 1/2 days left!!!!

I am over half way through the two week wait now!!!! I am so excited! It has flown right on by, it feels as though my iui was yesterday and I had a long wait ahead of me. Now the big day is nearly here!!!! I am doing very well, other than bitchy and such haha but that could be a wonderful thing! I am eight days post ovulation now, and I have been having very light cramping on and off for the past 3 days now so I pray with all my heart and soul that it is implantation!!! Today my temp has jumped upto 99.3, and during both my pregnancies I had a temp of 99.1-99.6...My boobs hurt soo soo bad and have been for about 4 days now, my nipples are constantly hard and so sore which is something I haven't ever experienced before. I am on hormone supplements, and have always been on supplements durning my cycles and never ever have I had such tender boobs and big sore nips haha not even during my last two pregnancies..so lets pray it is a wonderful sign!!!! I want this more than anything, Zachary and I have dreamed of having children to share our love with since we were young and in highschool. We are so far beyond ready for that dream to come true. I want more than anything than to be able to tell my grandma that Im pregnant, and for her to watch my belly grow and pray that she holds on long enough to hold her first great grand baby..she wants this just as bad as we do and I would really love to be able to give it to her :)
I hope you all have a wonderful easter and a fabulous week!!! I will report back later on in the week!!!

Ive been inseminated!

I had my IUI this morning! Zach went in and made his "donation" into his plastic cup girlfriend at 9:15 this morning and I went in to get inseminated at 11:15. I admit I was a tad nervous as to how his spermies where going to be but I can gladly say that they were way better than we could have ever hoped for!!!!! Remember when we first started with our RE and before Zach got put on tamoxifen his count was only 13 mil with 30% motility. Today he walked in to the office to my dr shaking his hand and telling him what an awesome job Zach did! lmao! His count was a giant 88.5 million per cc, I couln't believe it!!!! Last iui his count was 45mil so he nearly doubled his count since last september!!!! His motility was 85%! yay!!! So things are really looking wonderful for us this cycle. I really think this is going to be the one, I just feel it in my soul!!!! I got a copy of my follie numbers and Zach's sperm stats for my keeping..if it works they will be going into the baby book!!! Here are my follie numbers from my cd 11 ultra sound:

my linning was a 8.4 two days ago which is fabulous!!!!

my left ovary had- 16.1, 12.5, 12.4, 13.2, 12.7, 8.3, 5.4, 10.5

my right ovary had- 10.3, 11.2, 14.7, 10.2, 8.4, 10.3, 5.3, 8.4

I had a follistim injection that day after my ultra sound so by ovulation my 16 should be around a 20-22 and my 14.7 should have been around 19-20, and my 13 should have been close to a 17. So it is possible that I had 3 good follies at the time of ovulation.

I am soooo excited! Things couldn't look better for us! I know this cycle is going to work!!! I go in for my BETA on the 28th! come on two week wait!!!! woot! Thank you all so much for your prayers!!!

I talked to my dr about an alternitive to my suppositories seems how the insurance doesn't cover them anymore. I am on an all oral supplemet diet now. I am to take three 200mg prometruim a day rather than the one prometrium and the two 200 mg suppositories. I can't take crinon because it is only 90mg which isn't enough for me. I start my prometrium and femtrace tomorrow. Now that I am on 3 prometrium a day I can't drive at all. It used to be that I couldn't drive after my pill at 2 but now I am going to be dopey nearly all day lmao!! It makes me feel drunk, but if it keeps my hormones and body well for my miracle/s I will gladly walk around drunk! lmao!

yay for today!

I was awakend by the door bell early this morning to see that my meds arrived!!! I was so excited! I called my dr and after waiting for what felt like eternity they called me back to let me know to start my follistim today! So today is day one of the hormone madness hehe. I am to do 100 iu's for follistim a day for seven days. I will be going in on the 12th for an ultra sound to see when I will be ready for the insemination! I am so so excited to be on my way to motherhood. I really and truley feel that this will work for us and come december we will be home with our miracle baby/babies :) So yay for follistim, yay for a new cycle, yay for IUI..just plain yay!

follistim is on it's way! yay!

After much fighting and waiting with the insurance mail order pharmacy my follistim and hcg injection will be here tomorrow. I am so used to getting my meds from damer and cartwright pharmacy out of Chicago, they get my script, call me within 20 mins and my meds are on the way. Well it is not that way through the aetna pharmacy! They got my script and said it would take 24 hours to get it in their computers..ugh so I call this morning and they have it and tell me that they will call me with a copay amount, 3 pm and still no call so I called them and they said they were still processing my order!!!! I was so upset at this point! I am a girl pms'n taking estrogen supplements...ahhhh! I needed my meds today, but instead I am on femtrace to hold my cycle until I get the follistim. It is supposed to be here sometime tomorrow! I ended up paying $204. and some odd cents for my two meds. The 900 iu of follistim was $200 and the hcg injection was $4. I really really hope and pray that this cycle is the one for us! I dont know how many cycles I will be able to spend over 200 on meds for. This month we will be paying $700 (500 for the iui and 200 for the meds) so hopefully lucky number seven in the lucky month of march will bring us our baby.

A new cycle! A new start! Our plans..

Af came yesterday morning!!! I was soo darn excited. It is funny how in the ttc world you are so sad and depressed feeling when you get that bfn but once you start af everything seems good and happy again! I called my Dr this morning and they are putting me on 100 iu of follistim a day for seven days. I am to take femtrace until I get the follistim that way it hormonally holds my cycle in place. I told them that my insurance will cover my follistim injections IF they send my script to my insurances specialty pharmacy..and they did..yay! So my follistim that would usually cost us about $1,200 will cost us $175!!! My wonderful mother in law loaned us the money until we get paid on Friday..we would have been fine if Zach's work wouldn't have shorted us right about 175 bucks. So everything is looking good! I'm really excited to do another IUI, and hopefully bring us our dream come true. I will keep everyone updated on the cycle...it is a big one!!!!!!!